This week has been one of mixed emotions I have been sad and cried, laughed until I cried and one of utter amazement and overwhelming proudness of my eldest daughters awareness of what has happened.

It started with us cleaning up my scrapbooking room and putting Emily's name on her scrapbooking album I had bought for her while I was pregnant, (this in itself was a hard thing to do, but I felt like I needed to do something for Emily and it was meant to be for her and although it wont be full of all the pictures I had hoped for, it will still be hers). My daughter just started talking about Emily how she was still her big sister even though she is in Heaven now and how Emily will be spying on her and her brothers from up there, how Emily has the same nose as her and that Emily is her best friend. I couldn't say anything I just nodded in agreement it was breaking my heart to here her say those things but also I was so proud to have such a kind hearted daughter, she didn't want me to cry so I was trying to hide it but she new and said that it was ok to talk about Emily. She said she wished that Emily was still here but knows that she is still around us... When did my baby girl grow up???

Also this week my husband made some paves of our kids feet and made one for Emily as well they are now taking pride of place in our front garden for all to see It was such a lovely thought and I think a great way for him to shows his love for Emily.

That's about all I can think of right now and hopefully next time Ill have news on when we will finally get Emily back.


Amanda