Emily Is Back

I finally got a call yesterday from Fay my mid-wife who delivered Emily, She told me she finally had Emily with her and was really happy that she actually got her back because it is so hard to bring babies home that are earlier then 20 weeks even though Emily was only 4 days of but that doesn't mean anything to them.

Now for the hard part burying my baby girl, I'm scared that once we have buried her everyone will start to forget, now that we have got her here and there is no more waiting apart from the results from her autopsy what if people forget about her?????

I was talking to my brother the other day and I was talking to him about Emily and how even though she was not full term and we didn't know her I still lost a child and that hurts no matter how old they are. I just don't think people realise how much a baby means to you right from the start the feelings we get don't just start from when they are born we love them and care for them right from the moment we realise we are pregnant.

Why can't people understand that?

How can someone put a date on when our babies are real?

Whoever it was that put these dates into place has never lost a baby and to me there should be no set date a baby is real and a life from when they are conceived and should be recognize that way.

now I'm not sure any of that made sense I'm all of the place right now in my thoughts but just need to get it out.


Amanda